❤ Worst Sister Ever ❤
Every assignments, projects, examinations, work and all.. I might not be that genius to top them but at least, ever since I started poly, I never allow myself to fail any subjects/anything.
However, only today.. I realised I have failed to be a good sister.. Failed very badly.
I know I really suck.
How I wish I can be your best friend and your sister, at the same time.
It hurts me to see you emo, it hurts me to see your posts.. So.. Sad and all. It hurts me..
I felt that.. If I have been there for you, treat you better, cherish every minute we see each other, make every promises made come true, gives you more attention, care 'bout you more, try to understanding everything 'bout you, try harder to be your best friend, and make you like my best friend too..
I want to be your best friend so you'll share everything with me, even your darkest secret. However, I didn't make any effort to try befriend you, treat you good like how I treat all my
besties..
And I haven't been keeping my promises..
I said "Let's go out" but something caught up and we ended up going different ways.
I said "Let's sing!" but I got tired and walked away.
I said "Let's watch movie" but I felt lazy and so I postponed it to god-knows-when.
I said "Let's buy skateboard" but I changed my mind cause of this and that.
I said to myself "I'm not gonna start quarreling with my sis" but the very next minute.. I got mad at
lil' things and we started hating each other..
Whatever I've done.. I didn't try hard enough.. I didn't put in enough effort.
I'm really scared. When I leave for the states to study.. What will happen to us? Will we stop talking? Will I totally not know how're you doing? Will we.. Become strangers when we meet?
I'm sorry. If I disappoint you all the time, break the promises, quarrel with you, be unreasonable and all.
I'm really sorry.
I guess.. If you have a choice, you would rather anyone but me to be your sister..
And I know..
I'm the Worst Sister Ever.
さようなら ❤
Wednesday, July 9 ♠ 5:49 AM
